I figured it was time to make an entry as it’s been a while. Last night I had a strange dream about a huge open stadium, that could hold tens of thousands of people. It was a dome and not illuminated, vast sounds that echoed and resonated all over. I was preparing for some kind of great speech, I am not sure what the significance is of this particular dream but it was definitely memorable.

I’ve met some interesting people as of late, some new faces, some old familiar ones. It’s nice mixing the old with the new, I’m always a firm believer that we need to perfect the ratio between change or as people call it stepping out of the ‘comfort zone’. Step out too quickly and we stumble and fall, step out too slowly and we lose our faith and return back. It’s about maintaining that fine steady balance of building a steady framework and than constructing on top of it. Rome was not built in a day and if it was, it probably would be a bodged job at best.

The point is, if something is worth doing, it’s worth doing slowly and carefully with precision and love, not quickly and sporadically whilst hoping for the best. Sometimes we get so hooked up on strategy of life, that we lose touch with our feelings, we focus on one task from the next, jumping through one hoop after the other for that basic sense of accomplishment whilst never taking a moment to stop and be proud of everything we have achieved.

This is an age of blind motivation, people watch talks every day, a charismatic person will stand in front of an audience of usually quite vulnerable and hurt people, then project this shortly lived sense of empowerment in a person, making them feeling invincible within a moment, only for it to quickly subside afterwards. Then comes the selling point at the end, ‘buy my book’ or ‘come to my next seminar for part 2’. Motivation is a money game, it’s the ultimate con, the scam thrives as something deep and understanding, but the reality is much harsher. It only plays to exploit a persons emotions for their next ‘fix’.

“Motivate a person and they will feel it for a day, inspire them and they will feel it for the rest of their lives.”

The quote says it all, inspiration is a seed of motivation that is perpetuated from within, motivation is just, well, motivation. It’s more a feeling, an energy without a cause. Inspiration helps you find that cause and pursue it, without any dependency on someone to give you a pep talk every other day.





The Embodiment of Belief – 14.1.17 – 20.1.18

A person, is not necessarily their ideas or beliefs. Therefore it is possible to disagree profusely, but to do so without disagreeing with them as an entity. This is where a character of integrity stands strong. Many people invariably cannot separate ideas/beliefs from people. To prevent any productive debate from emerging into an argument, requires this objective analytical mindset. When an idea is attacked as a receiver, people often feel as if they are attacked personally depending on emotional investment into the said idea. Additionally to this, those with absolution in their thinking, have no flexibility of mind, and become rigid under pressure of interrogation of their beliefs. Perceiving even neutral, and non-critical enquiries as an attack upon the self. The reason we do not naturally prefer to differentiate a person from their ideas is because once again, it requires energy to separate the two.

Not all people agree with the beliefs they hold, they hold them because they understand them, even if they contradict the nature of the person or their personal experiences. It’s our natural inclination to remember and accept that which we understand, because it follows suit of the path of least resistance. We are inquisitive creatures at heart, but being inquisitive takes energy, sometimes this is a valuable  from within that cannot be afforded to pay for the debt of understanding.

If you’re a passionate person, then it pretty much goes without saying that your ideas are an extension of yourself with a pretty strong link to who you are. To the point where your ideas feel almost like a gateway to the core of your very being. You can be very adept in a subject without being passionate about it, this isn’t always a bad thing, especially during a debate. Because it means you have not emotionally invested yourself in the particular subject, therefore you can remain somewhat non-dissonant to any inquiries.

Emotional bonds towards ideas are usually linked with personal experience, therefore if we choose to develop ourselves into a subject that has aroused our interest from  a profound person experience. Then there is a good chance we will devote a lot of time to it, but there is also a good chance that due to our heavy emotional investment, we may repel other people’s opinions about our beliefs, resulting in stagnated or confirmation biased progress.

Try to imagine your emotions as your driving force behind your subject of interest, too much emotion results in a very strong and determined point of view, but almost in a fanatical sense, resulting in that rigid outlook again, a lack of openness or perspective.

To productively master a subject as best as possible, we must maintain that balance between emotional attachment. Therefore as to not be absorbed into a biased outlook.


Pleasure to Necessity – 13.1.17

In the Absence of a Divine Love and the absence of an unconditional Love, or any sublimated love into a fallible object, comes the redundancy of polygamy. No longer are we bound to the one on one constraints of relationships and preference becomes little to no consequence. Preference itself from an evolutionary point of view is a way of ensuring that one’s genetics are recycled back into humanity. With the coming of genetic engineering, we will no longer have to rely on this evolutionary preference, or if we do, it will not be from looking into another’s eyes and falling into a trance of love, but looking into a genetic sequence and and falling in love with the nature of it’s potential amongst our species. The desire to reproduce will be superseded by our technology, no longer will we be driven to reproduce out of pleasure, or some strong sense of an overwhelming ideal rife with powerful visions of a family, but more so a simple indifferent necessity.

The ability to pleasure the self comes from an evolutionary adaption, making it more satisfactory for one to remain celibate and solitude in nature. Self-gratification in a sense is a sort of buffer for an expanding population. A stabiliser as it were. If we were completely reliant on others for this form of sensory stimulation and hormonal catharsis, then we would be at great risk of accidental conception via consummation. 

In my experience, some people lack the ability to derive any pleasure from the self without intimately interacting with others. You could expect this to be a sort of evolutionary assurance that sooner or later our libido would get the better of us and we would surrender to it.

Fortunately we’re now living in an age, where people think more about the consequences of their animal instincts, mostly from education, which results in an understanding of the responsibilities of such an action. With the evolutionary assistance of being able to gratify the self without a dependency on another physically, but then this energy of dependency shifts to an emotional one. Where we require a sense of emotional fulfilment, a loving engagement from another. Something which cannot be easily sublimated from just the self. Which ultimately leaves us in the same boat, as with an increase of emotional intimacy, comes a desire for something a little more such as sex due to cultural conformities and ideals about relationship obligations.

If we have no desire, or no love driving desire, then why reproduce for the sake of ensuring the existence of our species? There must be some governing drive, a certain reasoning as to why we continue to genetically engineer and thrive as we do.



The Pessimistic Nature – 12.1.17

All things, from birth, are destined to die and with each passing day, we come closer to our final destination. That means from our subjective point of view, we are deteriorating and in some sense our bodies are suffering. This is unchangeable, our very existence is devoured by the motion of the universe or time itself. Perhaps not every animal, planet or condition of our environment is killing us, but on a deeper level, we are degenerating somewhat beyond our absolute control. 

Therefore as with all things below, that above should reflect the core of that natural process of deterioration, which is to be pessimistic. Optimism is purely a perspective, that contradicts the conditions of our natural subjective existence. To be optimistic is to breathe a certain life into the natural decay of all things, by changing the way that we interpret this natural decay. 

With nothing more than a higher thought, we can radically change the way our senses naturally are consumed by that decaying process. Therefore that which appears to be consistently on a path of a downward spiral, can become an upward optimistic spiral. We could assume that the development of this optimism is a recent one and it was not something existed in core of our intrinsic nature. The higher mind, or sentience is the ultimate mutator of our what may seem to be cursed painful existence. 

Relativism is our greatest asset for this higher mode of thinking. Changing perspective to yield the most from any given conditions of our environment or scenario. No longer must we be enslaved by our emotional impulses, to be more than human, we must become less than human in a certain objective sense. This means to remove redundant aspects from our nature, that may of once had a great purpose with maximum yield in a time long gone, but in a radically changing technologically influenced modern day, we must not reject these intrinsic redundant natures, but acknowledge them and put them aside with greatest respect. 

As with certain religious beliefs, there is a natural order to things, when these particular beliefs had a great importance in maintaining a certain order to society. Technology has changed dramatically in the past 10 years and that which we used 10 years ago, has been disregarded today and overshadowed, surpassed by much more functional and efficient technology. 

Christianity is age old and although the religion has had many revisions since it’s inception, it still remains relatively the same at the core. Religion may very well develop at a slower pace than technology, but with the combination of both religion and technology, we may be about to reach a point of critical theological redundancy. Our new God will become that of technology itself, or a transhumanitarian revolution, augmenting the will to change utilising tech to exponentially improve productivity of change. 

People love to adopt that which increases convenience and if abolishing religion leads a more convenient life for the majority, then it will be dramatically followed. As with technology, social media, online communication. 

The Economy of the Mind – 11.1.17

Insanely innately creating my own purpose, following my own footsteps, leaving my own hints. I see what I need to see, to deem my purpose true and absolute. Creating my own cause, through my own representation of desire. I can be told how it works, but until I truly see for myself, I lack the incentive to go above and beyond what is recognised. 

The economy of the mind is a fascinating thing. Tolerance in the extremity comes with an abundance of psychological energy, as all great things come at a great cost. Lack of tolerance, is found when we are short on the energy to understand and therefore empathise with a point of view. Which is precisely the reason we become short tempered, impulsive and aggressive when we are tired, or hungry. There are many things to consider when it comes to bolstering our psychological energy. 

The first are all the basic needs, food, drink, shelter, security as per Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. When we move from the physical sustenance, to the psychological we are open-ended in our requirements and it varies from culture to culture, person to person. At this stage in evolution, we are more dictated by our nurture, than our nature, therefore what we desire to be considerably fulfilled can be entirely manipulated with little natural intervention. 

Even all that we consider to be ‘nature’ is still ‘nurture’, just a more stubborn form of nurture, that is difficult to manoeuvre away from. There is of course basic innate nature, such as that of a baby that cries for it’s mother when it’s hungry, tired or alone. Then there are habits that we cognitively develop, assuming them to be a large part of our nature, when in fact they are just a more resilient for of stubborn nurture.

A Very Different Place

Dear reader, 

If you are indeed reading this, then I want to start with a plain statement, one that this was never intended for an audience, other than the one I have been addressing from within my entire life. This is not only my story, but perhaps even yours. I’ve lived many lives, over the course of time, my world became a prison, and then a salvation. I began to notice a cycle in all things, at first bad, then I learned to see the good again as I did in my youth, and then shortly after, I learned to see beyond the concept of good and bad, only to see things as they are in their own exclusive entity. Everything I see and perceive in the moment, is built upon my imagination, from every second that comes and passes, I construct those minutes in their wake with only that of imagination. Until limitations no longer exist in my personal dictionary of experience.

I am freedom.

The Tangents of Talent – 6.1.17

When we think about talents, we think about natural abilities/feats that surpass those considered normal or acquired skills. Talents are often only recognised to us when they are useful, or attractive to the eye/mind. I believe that we all have a set of talents in our mind, some yet to be discovered. A problem is that in this modern day, there may be many hidden talents that remain undiscovered until we start push outside of our comfort zone. You’ll never discover your limitations as long as you remain within the influence of the majority around you. Breaking through limitations requires courage, it takes risk.

The more tangent tasks we undertake, the more likely we are to discover something new and from this new discovery, will come a new function that requires a particular optimal perspective, opening the doors for more potential dormant talents to be applied. With the discovery of new functions, comes the natural redundancy of older less efficient ones. We can build upon that which already exists, or create new branches/trees altogether. 

I consider it to be the highest humanitarian obligation, not to just rise to a certain degree of power for the sake of itself, but to rise to a change that promotes all life in this world. To give back, not just receive. The path of most resistance is not without pain, strife or targeted hatred. To follow this path, you must be prepared to walk through the fire. Humanity is still in it’s youth, and like a spoilt naive child it will react to change in the same way, therefore it must be treated as such. With a tenderness, understanding and unconditional love. If you punish the child severely, it only becomes more resistant each time to that form of punishment, but to express love and freedom of choice, the child does not resist, and is encouraged towards the reward. Humanitarian obligations are quite a cumbersome subject, and it’s not something that can be understood as an instantaneous reward, once again people prefer the short and simple answer with the least psychological resistance. 

Therefore the reward needs to be of the tangible kind and certainly within grasp.